Did you even realized ?

I don't know why . I know I should not give up at this point of time . But I really feel that I have given way too much chances . Among other people , I have given you the most chances . I am grateful that you were with me last year , during my darkest moments . That is why I gave you many chances . I keep telling myself that you're a good friend and I should not give up on you . But , after thinking for the past few months , I'm really very disappointed . I really don't want to give up . But , I sometimes I feel that you're just using me . You only come to me when you're alone . When you have your own group of friends , you just leave me there , even when I'm alone . No matter what people said about you , I tried to tell myself that maybe they don't understand you well . But , sometimes , I really agree with them . But again , I kept forgiving you .

I really hope that you would change . I really don't want to lose you as a friend . I just hope you will realised that all of us have given you chances . Although I don't think you will see this post but I hope you understand how I feel . :)

It was just because of you . Everything was a mistake .

Sucky .

This holiday sucked max . :X

Just changed my blogskin . It's damn ugly .

Today , was so bored that I went to yew tee point and back to limbang then back home . HAHA .

I just had nothing better to do . Homework waiting for me to do . But , I'm really not in the mood to do . :P So I guess I'll start later . So yeah . I don't know what to say now .

Hope you understand . :)

I'm very fed up . Seriously,it's not like I really want to say. But your actions and eveything you did really just destroy all the trust in you . Little by little .

When you're alone , I'm there to pei you , so that you're not alone . But do you realised that every single time I'm alone , you make no effort to keep me company . I really want to know what am I to you ? I'm sick and tired of giving you that happy face every single day .

I gave you way too many chances . I knew that I shouldn't make the wrong choice again . That's the main reason why that no matter what you do , I tell myself that I will tolerate , so that this friendship will not collapse . I really hope we would really continue . I really hope so . But I know deep in me that , hoping doesn't help . I must do something instead of just hoping .

I promise you , I really won't give up so easily . I really won't . No matter what you do , I will continue to give you chances . But I hope that you don't take the chances I give you and me for granted please . Because I really feel so .

Although I promised you that I'll continue to give you chances , don't blame me if one day I give up . Because , that would be the day when I really can't tolerate you anymore . And I'm very sure I mean it . I can't promise that we would still be friends but still , that would be the day when I'm very disappointed in you . There would also be a wound in me that would really need a very very long time for me to heal it again .

I will not give up this time . I don't want to regret like the previous time . But if one day I give up , that would be the day that when I really give up thoroughly .

Only just for you . :)